Sleepless

Has it really been 5 months since I last posted here?! 2018 is flying past.

I can’t sleep. I’ve been struggling with insomnia for weeks, months now. If I wasn’t so exhausted, it would be laughable.

I can barely keep my eyes open, but when I close them, my mind just keeps spinning… I feel like I’m failing myself, my family, and my friends because I have no energy.

Tonight my mind is spinning… remembering my sister… worrying about my boys… sorting out details on a vacation and fundraiser ideas… mulling over daily activities… Stressing about not losing weight fast enough for my liking… going over conversations from the week… reviewing Jiu Jitsu moves… simply spinning.

PTSD? ADHD? Stress? Does it matter since the end result is the same?

I feel like I could sleep for a week, but tonight I can’t get to sleep at all.

Please pray I can sleep… that I’ll wake rested.

Thanks.

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