Sleepless

Has it really been 5 months since I last posted here?! 2018 is flying past. I can't sleep. I've been struggling with insomnia for weeks, months now. If I wasn't so exhausted, it would be laughable. I can barely keep my eyes open, but when I close them, my mind just keeps spinning... I feel…Read more Sleepless

Abuse and Suicide

Abuse and suicide are extremely intertwined. There are many ways suicide appears in an abusive relationship, but here are a few I have identified: Threats from the abuser that they "can't live without you" -- implied (or stated) that they will kill themselves if you leave. My ex frequently threatened to commit suicide if I…Read more Abuse and Suicide

Memories

It takes such a little thing to trigger a memory. Some are attached to music, others to actions, and more to words. This is all great and good when it is happy, peaceful, positive memories that show up unannounced... it's not so great when those memories are closer to nightmarish events. For example, when I…Read more Memories