Relationships

I've been giving a lot of thought to relationships lately. It's been 11 years since my separation, and almost 3 since the divorce was finalized. There are days, I still wonder if I made the right choice. I did my best to choose a husband who was safe, and I failed. He was not safe,…Read more Relationships

Eye of the Beholder

When I know my own worth, I will be more inclined to join in relationship with others who also see my worth.

Future Planning

Very often I hear of people talking about "knowing your Why", and setting goals - long-term and short-term. This has been challenging for me. I'm learning, now, how to do these things. I'm testing the waters, building life goals, recognizing my personal "why's". Not everyone knows how to do these things, yet too many assume…Read more Future Planning

Storm in the Calm

I'm sitting in my living room. The world outside is calm, cold and snowing. It's calm because the city is 75% shutdown because of Covid-19. There's nothing to do, and nowhere to go. It's a time when we can rest, reset our lives, take time for self-care, an emotional breather. Except... my emotional breather is…Read more Storm in the Calm

Welcome 2020

I've been grieving the past few weeks. The only thing is, I'm not even certain what I'm grieving. Am I "simply" missing my siblings? Am I grieving the things in my life I'm wishing I had, but don't? Am I grieving things to come? Am I "simply" having a small mental breakdown, or failing to…Read more Welcome 2020

Breaking Point

What does it take to stop domestic violence? It takes a breaking point. When someone finally leaves an abusive relationship, it is always because they reached their breaking point. This can be something small, like the straw that broke the camels back, that one final act that was just too much. Or, it can be…Read more Breaking Point

The Challenge of November..

November is a challenging month for me. It's the month of birthdays, birthdays should be celebrations, but instead, for me, they give me a pause for grief. Instead of celebrating my sister's 50 years of life, I'm marking almost 14 years of her murder. Instead of celebrating 44 years of my brother's life, I'm marking…Read more The Challenge of November..

I wish… by anonymous

This was shared by someone who wishes to remain anonymous. It's a hard topic to discuss, but I think it's important. Does this mean she hasn't forgiven him? Is there something wrong with her? I welcome your feedback. ================================================= I watched a movie tonight in which an abusive ex-husband was portrayed. It was hard to…Read more I wish… by anonymous

Sleepless

Has it really been 5 months since I last posted here?! 2018 is flying past. I can't sleep. I've been struggling with insomnia for weeks, months now. If I wasn't so exhausted, it would be laughable. I can barely keep my eyes open, but when I close them, my mind just keeps spinning... I feel…Read more Sleepless

An Anxious Christmas

I've been filled with anxiety lately. There are so many reasons I could be, and even should be, anxious. Finances, children, new diagnosis, Christmas, friendships, family, Christmas, weather .... I don't like having anxiety. It annoys me. As my anxiety rises, I feel like I'm failing at everything: housekeeping, parenting, personal goals, finances, friendships. I…Read more An Anxious Christmas